Within This Happy Feeling

Yesterday i went on a date with my bf. We went to kokas together and ate together during iftar. (It's ramadhan! 😇)

I feel so happy, and i never feel this since the last time i gone with him before he became my bf. I thought it would be the last time and i wanted to move on from him. But, it's failed because he asked me to go out with him 😂

And i still remember the words i said to him on chat after we hung out.

"Thank you, I'm really happy that i met you. I love you." And after i sent that, i cried in both of happiness and sadness. Somewhat hurts.

Yes, we did gone on a date many times, and i feel normal. But, yesterday it feels so special. I really love it, really really love it. Is this means that i still love him? I think so. 

My feelings was down to him because he turned me down on early last year. So when he asked me to go out with him, i don't feel really happy at all. But, i kinda still happy too that i could spend my times with him again and i can't let him go from my side. And I'm sure my feelings will go up again during dating with him, and this is it.

Yesterday, i can feel it that he loves me. It feels so nice to feel loved by him. And...that's makes me happy until now.

Then I'm sure, i still love him too. I see. 

Then, this feelings never gone since 10th grade when i made a move to make him as my friend and has grown to a crush.

I made this illustration the next few days after he confessed to me.

I write this to remember this memory.