Old Blog
I really love blogs, I stalked mangaka's blogs too much and they gave me inspirations back then. Until now...I want to go back writing my life journals here. Ah yes, I'm planning to create analog life journal too. Shopee always get me to buy unimportant things there.
hmm....only my close friends know this blog. I think there's really no one know well about this blog. I opened my pixiv account and found that my old blog link is still displayed there. I already removed it but I'm going to put it here hahaha since it was my really first blog
OMG it's really old hahaha, the reason why I don't use it anymore because I forgot the password and it uses my old email too that I also have forgotten the password too.
But as I said on my old posts, I write this to remember.
Shocking Moment Came Again....
So..okay. The shocking moment that happened yesterday is: there's an account following me on instagram. I thought it was a normal ghost/fake account so I didn't took it seriously about it. But...actually, it gives strange feeling to me, like, it's really unusual for a japanese following my account. The account doesn't have any profile pic either.
I knew that I got a friend request notification on facebook last morning, but facebook on my mobile browser is shit, so I decided to check it later and yeah I checked it and the account who added me have the same name as the account who followed me on IG. I don't know this person. I checked my messages and there's 1 message request. It was japanese and he wrote pixiv and skype. I was quite shock like---
oh my god...don't tell me....
...yes, I remember this person.
On 2014, I got a friend. He came from my NSFW Pixiv account. He added my skype and we had a little chat there. He was begging me to let him give his dingding picture to me and he want me to his dingding to be a model for my next drawing........
Well, i accepted and he gave his dingding photo. it was...umm, should I explain it in here....well his was............l-long....???? Actually, I didn't know what to reply when he asked "what do you think?"
well..I did an appreciation, so I told him that his dingding have a nice good shape. Well I don't know why I said that, but I just want to praise him. I think he was very happy that I praise him. (I don't even know how to praise someone's dingding?????????)
and afterwards, he often chat お久しぶり(I miss you) for a few months before I completely left skype. I did replied his chat too.
I don't have any idea...is this person really a good person or bad? But I do keep my guard up. I don't know his real name, even his display name on both media social. His name is Haruka Tsukiyama. Ah yes, I think he just known that I have a main pixiv account, he added me there too. I put my instagram too there, so maybe he knows my instagram from my main pixiv account.
I don't know, but for a fake account and a dangerous person, his motives are just too- well how to put it into word?
for what he come back to me?
Does he have been searching for me in this 5 years?
Taking a rest.
Recently, I feel so down. I think I need time to talk with myself more.
I don't know why I feel so tired with people, even the closest one. Is this mean that I am no longer feeling comfortable with them? But I still need them and I want to keep staying beside them, but, now, I'm taking a rest. I don't feel like I want to talk with them. I..just cannot take any bright things from them. I feel very tired. Very very tired.
It's not that I want to end up everything, I just need a rest. At least for 3 days... ,___,)
Hello Again...
I can't take a promise to keep updating this blog, but the things I wrote in here is just....nice to take my memories back. I almost forget everything I wrote in here and it's nice that I can remember them again.
Many things happened and I hope I can write them in here.
Today's occhan is...very tired with life. I hope I can keep continue living and doing things that I like. Eventhough my diaries are shit in here, I still want to tell everything what I have gone through my life this far.
。。。がんばって！
Within This Happy Feeling
Yesterday i went on a date with my bf. We went to kokas together and ate together during iftar. (It's ramadhan! 😇)
I feel so happy, and i never feel this since the last time i gone with him before he became my bf. I thought it would be the last time and i wanted to move on from him. But, it's failed because he asked me to go out with him 😂
And i still remember the words i said to him on chat after we hung out.
"Thank you, I'm really happy that i met you. I love you." And after i sent that, i cried in both of happiness and sadness. Somewhat hurts.
Yes, we did gone on a date many times, and i feel normal. But, yesterday it feels so special. I really love it, really really love it. Is this means that i still love him? I think so.
My feelings was down to him because he turned me down on early last year. So when he asked me to go out with him, i don't feel really happy at all. But, i kinda still happy too that i could spend my times with him again and i can't let him go from my side. And I'm sure my feelings will go up again during dating with him, and this is it.
Yesterday, i can feel it that he loves me. It feels so nice to feel loved by him. And...that's makes me happy until now.
Then I'm sure, i still love him too. I see.
Then, this feelings never gone since 10th grade when i made a move to make him as my friend and has grown to a crush.
I made this illustration the next few days after he confessed to me.
I write this to remember this memory.
Home Sweet Home 2
I have a draft that I'm going to post but i have no time to complete it. I was going to take photos of the books that i bought at Big Bad Wolf. Yeap, I've just went there again today. Last week i went there too, and i will show my loots later in the wip post /?
In the last 2 weeks i went back to Tangerang and this week too. It's a record lol www
I will only tell what's my activity today
So i asked my high school friend to go to Big Bad Wolf. I feel guilty because i didn't ask her to join last week. I was intended to buy Fifty Shades of Grey. Well, actually, it was in stock on last week but i didn't buy it because the cover is not the tie (it had the same picture as its movie), and the shitty thing is bbw was restocked fifty shades with the original cover! (The tie)
I was looking for it and i didn't found it. So i asked the worker where's the place for the novel, but sadly and really unfortunately, it's out of stock. Yes, out of stock. My mood went down suddenly.
In change, i bought 5 Harlequin novels lol (some historical romance, and regency romance...?), and those novels were on sale in lower price. ( i bought one harlequin novel too last week and today that novel was on sale at the lower price too. My mood were getting more down but it wasn't that bad). After got the those books, i regroup with my friend and went to the cashier. I kinda shocked too that the real price for the harlequin was 100k rupiah, and bbw cut the price 70% and before sale, it was 30k. On sale was 10k.
My friend wanted to buy a photo frame so i recommend her to buy it at Daiso, so we went to Aeon after from bbw. We went to daiso but she were not looking for a normal photo frame. We talked many things, i was really happy that i could go shopping with her. I got hungry and we ate at kfc. After that, i wanted to buy matcha ice cream but it out of stock in Aeon Supermarket and Shirokuma ;_; i already paid for the ice cream so i changed the flavor into seasalt ice cream.
I thought the taste will be delicious or something strange flavour, but it tastes normal.
We went back home after that. Such really a nice day xD
And i took a photo of a lion doll
He's cute wwww
Ah yeah i almost forgot something. I bought a illustrated face mask xD
I like it tho, the face mask was cool when i used it
The First Day of 2nd Semester
Today was the first day of 2nd semester. I finally reunited with my friends again ehehe 😄
Yesterday, when I'm arrived at Bandung, my friend came to me and gave me some green tea kit kat!! 😍 it's so delicious i love green tea so much 💕
And, this morning i went to campus. Few of my friends bringing foods/snacks from their hometown. I ate the snacks, it was really delicious. It was some kind of chips. And one of them gave me Pie Susu from Bali 😄
I haven't eat it 😗 i will eat it soon
My friend told me that there was a new food and beverages vendor at my campus' cafetaria. It was 50% discount for today only! I ordered spaghetti 🍝 and lemon mojito 🍋
That's the mojito. At first i don't know what it is but it was really fresh, there was a lemon and mint leaves.
After lunch, we went to campus library for killing time and wait for the next class. I read a biology book. I feel clever automatically (?) LOL
I haven't mask my face for 2 months so i masked.
I gotta go to sleep. I need to do the laundries tomorrow.
